he stands along the beach,
staring far off the distance.
staring at the setting sun,
he slowly drifts into the water.
he wanders without a thought,
just slowly wandering, aimlessly forward
he looks down, looking down below him,
he sees the waves brush against his feet,
all he feels is his hope slowly washing away.
he strides silently forward,
forward into the cold sea,
forgetting all reason,
all he feels is emptiness.
he treads further on,
turning his back on his past,
ignoring all advice,
he seeks to live a new life.
im tired. really really really tired. i don't know what kind of friends i've been making in this two months. i'm so tired of people being nice to me, treating me as if i'm a good friend and making me feel as if i'm a good friend, only to actually abhor my presence. i don't know what to feel anymore. i'm just afraid. i was never emotionaly strong to start the year with in the first place. and everything that has happened in the past two months only made me feel weaker and more out of place in this world. its like i only serve to exist but not to live. i don't know where this life is heading anymore. everyday it just gets darker and gloomier, scarier and lonelier. its like everything slowly just fade to the sides. its as if i'm always being marginalized. sometihings i even feel like i cease to exist. its so scary. so so scary.
please lord, tell me what this life is for....
ayuzero went searching for the answer at 8:53 PM
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