he stands along the beach,
staring far off the distance.
staring at the setting sun,
he slowly drifts into the water.
he wanders without a thought,
just slowly wandering, aimlessly forward
he looks down, looking down below him,
he sees the waves brush against his feet,
all he feels is his hope slowly washing away.
he strides silently forward,
forward into the cold sea,
forgetting all reason,
all he feels is emptiness.
he treads further on,
turning his back on his past,
ignoring all advice,
he seeks to live a new life.
So much hurt
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you
I guess that pretty much sums up this chapter of my life. It really does hurt more than I thought it would. I thought i was ready. I thought that i could handle it as well as i imagined. but i was wrong. i guess only time will help. But i've been such a fool, being a part of your game. i don't know anymore, if you ever did actually care about me. if you ever did have a place in your heart for me. because i'm so confused, because the pain would be more if all my actions were only service to your game. I don't know, its just a mess of confusion, everything is in a whirl. i feel so cheated, so used, that i cannot comprehend why i even fell into it. the signs were there, but i ignored it in good hope. my hope was betrayed. how ironic that the song out of reach was played in the cinema. almost as if it was telling me, that you are out of reach, and that i am only hurting myself. i guess its been so silly of me. living on false hope, wishing that things will turn my way. what a fool i am. i'm just a loser in love, always ending up second best. the pain hurt more the second time, it hurts. but i will move on. there is no point anymore. whats there behind me is just pain and hurt. i will move on, i have no choice. by staying behind i will only grow in pain and depression. i guess all this is just a lesson for me. a lesson teaching me on how naive i am. how simpleton i am.
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