he stands along the beach,
staring far off the distance.
staring at the setting sun,
he slowly drifts into the water.
he wanders without a thought,
just slowly wandering, aimlessly forward
he looks down, looking down below him,
he sees the waves brush against his feet,
all he feels is his hope slowly washing away.
he strides silently forward,
forward into the cold sea,
forgetting all reason,
all he feels is emptiness.
he treads further on,
turning his back on his past,
ignoring all advice,
he seeks to live a new life.
she is online right now and I don't think anyone told her about this blog. Sigh, I really don't know how to handle it anymore. I just don't understand why I'm feeling this montage of emotions at this time. I sometimes wonder what triggered this surge of emotion in me. She is online right now but I dont't know what to say. Should I ask directly- but I don't dare. I never did dare do it on my own anyways. I guess I'm not confident enough. I wonder if she knows what I'm going through right now. I remember she once told me, " I was only cold to you cause you liked me". Those words might have been said a long time ago but they still live in my emotion baggage. I heard that I annoy you alot. I guess that is true but you don't have to lie to make me feel good.
I don't know what to say now. I guess the mixture of emotions is overwhelming.
Now I run to you,
like I always do,when
I close my eyes,
and think of you,
such a lonely world,
when I close my eyes I dream,
I return to you,
like I always do
ayuzero went searching for the answer at 9:45 PM
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